Showing posts with label Flights. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Flights. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 2, 2016

Landing in Essaouira

N, K and I
I’m sitting at a local tea spot in the backstreets of Essaouira, watching the steam evaporate from my glass and taking a moment to reflect upon how I got here. It was with the click of a button that my plans officially changed and I decided to put my energy into the pop-up dream of living and teaching yoga in Morocco. It is funny, the unexpected interludes we experience in life… on one hand it surprises me how my daily routine has taken on such a different tone to what I’d imagined it would be a few months ago. But on the other hand, it doesn’t surprise me as I come to realise that the illusion lies in believing life is made up of a predictable set of events… that’s what really narrows ones potential.
I started off as a backpacker in this little town just over a month with my girls K and N – we had travelled all the way up and down the country and finally found respite by the seaside. We’d heard great things about Essaouira, the windy city that drew in many keen kite-surfers and surfers alike. The white and blue washed walls of the old medina look as though they were once vibrant colours, alive with the buzz of the 60’s. The atmosphere mimics many beach towns with its simplicity and calm; fisherman lay their morning catches out by the pier and vendors contentedly man their stalls, selling a range of colourful, flowy beach garms. But unlike anywhere else in the world, the Moroccan flare holds its own unique quality - desert men lead herds of camels draped in colourful material over sand dunes on the beach while young, good looking men gallop along beside them on stallions. 
The looks here are so varied, in the medina the older local men walk around in traditional, long cloaks with pointy hoods while most of the younger ones have that cool, surfer dude look with scruffy, bleach blonde hair and tanned skin. Many also carry a funny air of Jimi Hendrix, a celebrity name that still graces these streets since his brief visit years ago; the ‘castle’ in which he stayed located at the end of the beach is still talked about and visited regularly. The rumour that he impregnated half the city isn’t too hard to believe when you end up in conversations with a bunch of local guys with the same curly hair and flared trousers… it does make me grin. Unlike the rest of Morocco, Essaouira seems to have found a balance of traditional meets modern; the behaviour is far more relaxed and every other local asks you out for a drink despite it being forbidden by Islam. The call to prayer still sounds 5 times a day and the people are still proudly Muslim, their value system just seems to be more internalised.

During our time there we indulged in our respite, slowing down our rhythm and living a very mellow existence surfing by the beach, doing yoga on the terrace or sitting in another beautiful café. A week flew by, I was nearing the end of my summer savings and it was time to go home. But a new seed was planted, the manager of our hostel offered me free accommodation on the basis that I contribute in some way; the idea of staying in Morocco seemed mad, I couldn’t be on holiday forever let alone afford to be. But we’d noticed there were no yoga teachers in Essaouira, so we figured I could put my skills to use and sustain myself financially by teaching yoga as there was a clear gap in the market… I let the idea consume me and within 12 hours I was hooked, the thought of setting up something in Morocco rode over the idea of a cold and expensive life in London. One hazy evening as we were all sat in the wifi hub at the bottom of the hostel, I booked my plane ticket back to Essaouira.

At this point in my travels I was (unsurprisingly) lacking a working phone, bank card and warm clothes, so for practical reasons I returned to London with the girls. We were just in time to catch the first few glorious days of autumn before my next adventure was to begin. After the beach vibes of small town Essaouira going back to London was like entering a 5 day whirlwind; running around a big, busy city with heavy bags, jumping onto last minute, expensive train journeys and re-connecting with friends and family in-between. As I neared the end of it all, I breathed out a long sigh of relief at having ticked off everything on my to do list with a half a day left to pack and wind down. I thought I had it all sorted out and then I get a Facebook message from W, the hostel owner in Essaouira - Obstacle #1.

“Where are you? I’m at the airport.” – The first bought of anxiety hit me and I tried so hard to deny the possibility that I'd made the mistake. But sure enough, I’d got the date of my flight wrong and indeed, missed it. What was once a cheap, budget ticket was now a long and expensive mistake. So with great resignation, I bought another ticket back... at least I had a bit of extra time to relax and sort out the last few bits on my to do list? Silver linings eh… 
It wasn't too long before the date of my return had come back around and the cloud of anxieties had blown over me. I opened my sleepy eyes on the plane just as we were touching back down on African soil and I could finally hear the whistling winds of Essaouira. Deep breath - I'd made it! Second time lucky…?


Tuesday, September 15, 2015

Turbulent love


Phew! I made it onto the plane this time ;). A tumultuous storm is brewing in my belly as my heart fluctuates between sadness, anxiety and exhaustion; contradictory emotions to reflect this complicated situation. Oh how many times this moment has occurred throughout my life.
Having lived an extremely privileged multicultural existence, one has to develop the ability to adapt quickly to ever-changing environments. It evokes a sense of what yogi’s would refer to as ‘aparigraha’ or non-attachment, which seems an impossible task when investing oneself in new situations and making heartfelt connections inevitably creates attachments. The pangs of letting go, while ‘normal’ are still heart-breaking every time. As I listen to the thoughtful melody of 'Black Sands' (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cTjF2_-bneM), I ask myself if it’s a blessing or a curse to have your loved ones spread out so far? I prefer to favour the former, although in moments like this my decision wavers. For the last 6 years of my life I’ve developed a pattern of ending up in long distance relationships; becoming another ripple in the technological, new-age wave of cyber love.
Brown Hill Creek
J and the family on our Claire Valley wine tour
In some ways, long distance is a blessing: liberating oneself from the trap of co-dependency, living separate lives with space to discover who you both are. Free from the cyclical routine of monotonous nights at home watching episodes of reality TV shows (although sometimes I crave that)… And then after months of doing your own thing, the countdown comes to an end and the drum roll sounds. The time comes to reignite the flame that’s been on hold for months.
The first few days is always the most interesting as you see the other person more objectively; becoming aware of the small quirks that make up their character and noticing how so much time apart really does distort ones memory. The ‘real’ memories soon come flooding back and the comfortable groove sets in. The joy of sharing easeful banter in the same time zone, allowing ones actions to sing in the absence of words with a simple touch or gaze. Growing slightly older each time round and noticing the slight changes in how you communicate together and develop as people… Soon enough, you merge and a routine develops together.
Our trip to Uluru

This time round, I was lucky enough to connect to my many Adeladian loves: yoga seshes, curry nights, hazy days on the hill, wine tours and drunken dances (with family time in-between of course); taking full advantage of my audaciously long summer holiday in the first few sunny days of an Adelaide spring.
Last curry night
My visit this time was supposed to be brief, but old habits die-hard and saying goodbye always comes around too fast. So (on top of a few other reasons) we extended my flights aand then accidentally missed the one I was supposed to get on (eeeeekkk!) but as a result, we got to enjoy a few more unexpected glorious days together. And then just as fast as Abbot lost his position, the 5 alarms we’d set (so as not to miss another flight) were going off all at once and we were saying our last arbitrary words of goodbye to each other. The penny dropped and landed facedown, the flipside of long-distance... That familiar heartache began its slow, dull thud. My hands clenched into fists and my jaw hardened as I swallowed the uncomfortable lump that was working its way up my throat. The unfairness of the routine and the pain of letting go again made the walk to the gate a struggle, as I tried hard to retain my composure and focus on the task of getting on the plane.
As L. and I were discussing the other day, the cheesy line ‘if you love someone you should let them go’ actually holds a great deal of truth…  To truly love is to release them from your illusory grasp and allow it to extend beyond the barriers of ownership and entrapment. In his book ‘The Road Less Travelled’ psychoanalyst M Scott Peck describes love as ‘the nurturing of another’s spiritual growth’; growth requires one to pass through various stages of suffering to release ones old self – a beautifully tragic process to experience with another. But as a good friend of mine says: ‘always count your blessings’, as the bumpy ride never ends... Aha, turbulence just got real and the seatbelt sign is on. My clinical aeroplane meal has formed a hard, congealed layer in front of me :s and I have just about enough time to fit in a soppy rom-com before I arrive home to Malaysia for some family time. Goodbye to one love(s) and hello to another; gawd almighty, I’m gonna have to top that all off with a taste of cheese ;) :(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l51UfkpamiY)



Seas of yellow
Song of the day: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_jfHalX5atA